Time for a Change
Friends, it's time for a change. I'm sure you've noticed my absence in the last few days, and I apologize for leaving you hanging like that, but I've been doing a lot of soul-searching about LadyErynn.com. It's obvious that this website hasn't attracted the community interaction that I'd hoped it would, and I doubt I can make it work in its current format. But that's not the only issue. LadyErynn.com is one of my favorite things in the world, and I've worked hard to bring you accurate and entertaining articles. I adore doing the research and reading your books, but I can't keep doing it forever. In 2016, I had Colon Cancer, and my life was put on hold as I endured surgeries, chemotherapy, and a body that had turned against me. When it was over in November of that year, I swore that 2017 was going to be the year I rose up from the ashes and became who I was meant to be. As you can see, that didn't happen. Depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, and other factors prevented me from breaking out of my shell, and I just sank lower and lower into the pit. LadyErynn.com was the only thing keeping me sane during that time, and I'm thankful for what support it did receive. But I'm tired of being stuck in my own life. I'm ready to bloom. That's why I'm stepping back from LadyErynn.com as I try to find myself again. I need to learn that I'm not worthless, that I do have something to offer the world, and that life can be worth living. It's going to be a long, hard journey, but I've already taken some steps towards the new me. I got my Treadclimber back, so I can begin exercising again. I'm working on a meditation routine, and I'm learning how to relax without feeling guilty about it. I'm also trying to find a job outside the home, but that's proving to be difficult. Still, I have high hopes that when you see me again, I'll be a whole new person. And that new person may just have a new website. I'm planning to do some research (you know I love it!) on how I can make LadyErynn.com a friendlier, more community-interactive place. I will keep my promise of reviews, but I will not be taking more books until my return. I may also shut down Critter Copywriting for good because it hasn't been working out. The point is, I need to take some time and figure out where to go from here. There will be good days, there will be bad days, but I'm confident that things will work out if I keep moving forward. It's time to put the past behind me and stop comparing myself to others. It's time to raise the bar, break out of the shell, and crumble the walls of insecurity.
It's time to live again.